Perplexed yet Undecieved

I saw his blog and tried to scrutinize it over and over. Specially every archive that he has. I was just curious what he has been writing. And of course it tells something about him. What I've noticed was, he wrote something about his long distance love affair and still it's posted filed under March 23. I tried to look on what he posted about me on February 2, but disappointingly, I think he removed it. It's about pointing his fingers to God's direction. Maybe he thinks that I already forgot about it. Well, it's not. I can still remember what he wrote. I'm not naive.

April this year, we tried to bring back what we've started. And we became even closer. Though things are getting better, still my heart and mind are not comfortable with him. I can still sense than there's something going on that I dont know. He once said that he already cut off the communication and affair that he have with the girl. He could see that I believed but the truth is, I didn't. Still I was not comfortable. Trying to search for things that will reveal and help my confusion. Then the day came, suddenly there's a bomb and everything exploded. It is! I was not wrong. What disturbed me was true! Consequnces attacks. He lied to me. Good thing, I was not hurt when I knew it. Maybe it's because of my senses. Still he didn't decieve me. And I'm on his side.