Gratitude

Thank you Lord for so much PATIENCE your giving me when I'm running out of it. I want to give up but there's a strong force from YOU that keeps me going. Sometimes I cry inside because it seems to be unfair. I give much more than what I get. I'm afraid that one day, I might follow myself, instead of YOU. You're making me stronger that I used to be. It's YOU whose with me. If I chose not to be with YOU, I might be doing other things taht is not in YOUR will. Nowadays, I'm facing troubles, which is not mine, but from somebody that you're connecting to me. It's a weird thing. But I'm affected when he has problems. And You would always want me to be with him. That is how you want me to follow YOU nowadays. As I look at myself, I'm a person full of pride and would choose to give up when I run out of PATIENCE, or get disppointed. Looking at myself doing the things that YOU want me to do for this person, I've realized that YOU'RE using me to express your LOVE for him. YOU really love him so much. Sometimes, I'm thinking, why do I do these things to that kind of person. This is the answer "GOD HAS GIVEN ME THE LOVE THAT I NEED FOR THAT PERSON." It's weird. But YOU have been guiding me to deal with this person. Now, I can take all the inequities, pains and sufferings because of YOU. You're preparing me for the future, for the time you're going to give me YOUR will. Thank You Lord!